hello again

Hmmm, its been long that I did some introspection or may be some retrospection ,
Or maybe I did but was probably too busy to pen it down.
My fault again for being a lazy bum but then 3 months at home after a long hiatus and forcing oneself to write something is too much to ask for. And yeah 3 months at home just flew away, even before I thought I was getting used to the delectable home cooked food, cosy bed to sleep, tight hugs from mom and lo & behold twas time to head back to pune once gain.

Oh how much I hate it…..back to the rigamorale of college life….classes…submissions….and a lot more unyielding activities done for the heck of doing which are hardly a value add to ones personality. More so the third semester is actually bugging coz deres hardly nethn that’s to be learnt in class but is more of a self help kind of thing…..yet one is stuck in college for nuts.

Nevertheless in this flurry of activities is one good thing which is spending time with people who have become indispensible in a place which is miles away from home….and to think of it…..it may become so difficult to keep in touch wid them after we all head in different directions after placements is slightly nauseatic.

Yet for whatever time we are here….its absolute fun to hang with each other, crack non sensical jokes. Gossip, bitch and much more. Cant believe few days from now we all will be settled in different cities dependent on cell phones to keep in touch.

I get reminded of my dad who when in a very nostalgic moods vividly narrates incidents from his college life….and I used to sit beside him thinking mine still has time to get over….and what I see suddenly before I could even realise my college life is going to get over….too soon…too fast…..and ‘OH MY GOD , I AM DONE WITH MY MBA’

Iam jus few months away from this milwstone and the thought of it also freaks me out…..cos all this while I was thinking I have come here to refine myselg to be a good manger , to enter the corporate world….and how time just flew away.
One and ahalf years down the line iam a little more educated but iam not wiser for sure.
Probably more informed but hardly smarter…

And reality suddenly daunts me….what have I been doing all these days….dis I screw up things all over again??....or may be iam getting unneccesarily paranoid….

God only knows whats happening…..but I wish to figure it out very soon….before this time also flies off…..

I will be back soon
Maybe a little smarter……

At Crossroads Again

We held hands as friends for life
promised to be together no matter what strife
Decided to walk together, neither ahead nor behind
The Thought of being together was always on the mind
On a particular day some questions were were asked
Some eyebrows raised, i was left aghast
Twas hard to beleive, that those were my friends
Who chose to embarras me no ends
I froze to be a stone, not knowing what to say
Yet no one stood up for me , to my dismay
As minutes changed to hours, i decided to take a stand
With three friends by my side, life didnt look all that bland
I learnt that day, who my real friends are
I moved on with them, leaving behind memories sour
As time flew, things normalized again
The old friendship rekindled with a new flame
At crossroads again, wanted to move further move on
But something held me back, something that had long gone
As I let my head, rule my heart that time,
I chose to get back people who once i considered mine
Today again we walk hands in hands
No promises made,no footprints left on sand
Just a beleif in heart to be there for each other
To just be good friends and trust one another
We began this journey a few months back
Yet it seems like eternity, a gift i forever had
I also know i will be at crossroads again
But cos of A FEW GENUINE FRIENDS everything will again be the same.....

Thank you for being always there, and for letting me knoe what real friends are....i wish i can be with you as you guys have been there for me always...There's lots that i have learnt from you people...Thank you for giving me
wonderful times....which are now wonderful memories
Would'nt thank u individually...cos u knw who am i talking abt..... :)

whom do we blame???

As terror strikes every nook and corner of our lives..a thought comes to my mind....i penned this down in a finance class in college.... it was very random....didnt know it would materialise into a piece of poetry....here it goes...T

A dry throat, not a drop to drink
Misty eyes, tears stuck till the brink
On the pavement very cold, lies an orphaned tot
Bruised and punished for something he did not
His parents were gunned down by devils in disguise
He's left alone, helpless and naive
As Those devils roam scot free,free of guilt
The tot grows up,weak physically and mentally tilt
The apple of his parents eyes
They would have sent him to the army with a gun by his side
He hunts for livelihood,looks for a home
He gets neither, he's still all alone
Dejections from all places, overwhelmed with spite
No apparent solace to give him respite
In this hour of agony, he resorts to a vice
He trades off his morals to become the' devil in disguise'
He eventually gets to pick up the gun
He shoots an innocent man,his salvation has begun

New year resolutions..

As a welcome another new year to my life , i feel almost compelled to think of having some new year resolutions which will not only help me mend a few things in life but will also give me a new sense of achievement.....
So , i pull out a paper and a pen to jot down a few resolutions which i would love to have and follow simultaneously. The very fact that i want to have many such resolutions defeats the purpose of having them, because the more one has the more discouraging it becomes to follow them....yet every year i add not less than 5 to my list....and eventually follow none of them

so this year i decided to restrict myself to just three of them...n lo and behold...its the tenth day of january and iam yet to follow any....
So, i guess i should put an end to my new year resolutions.....
So, i finally take a great resolution which i will certainly abide by and that is to have no new year resolutions..!!!

the most beautiful woman

Well she certainly was the most beautiful woman and it wasnt just her looks that iam talking about.Her charm went much beyond her physical beauty which faded away as she left all of us.And even though she isnt anymore with us i can still feel her warmth& herlove.Be it her reassuring smile after a bad day at school or her soothing head massage one day before an exam,each of it made me love her more and more.
Its been almost an year that she left all of us yet its diificult to imagine life wihout her....my ancestral home will never be the same again...who would greet me with the biggest smile when i go back home.....who would nurse my cough & cold,who would tell me stories at night even when iam 21 years old......
20 years of my life that i knew her,she touched my life in the most beautiful way,she taught me to love, gave me unconditional love, gave me the best hugs when i used to fear ghosts at night.....
its hard to come in terms with a life without her....yet theres a beleif she is watching me and correcting me evan today
hope she's happy wherever she is
hope i can give love to everyone the way she loved all of us
hope i can be as generous and forgiving as her....
Even though her blue eyes and pink cheeks cease to exist today.....the love she spread will love forever...
Love you lots
how i wish i could tell you all this when you were alive....

love is in the air

Not one of my best composed poems...yet like it because i wrote this for a competition in 10 mins flat.....


Love is in the air

Sitting on a sofa sipping my daily cup of tea
Trying to read a book yet lost in my dreams
Smiling foolishly without a reason
Feeling warm in the coldest season
Is love in the air?

Going for a stroll in a heavy downpour
Drenched completely yet asking for more
Theres a song on the lips, a dance in the walk
No clue of the destination yet fervour in the walk
Is love in the air?


Gazing at the stars on a silent clear night
No fear of tomorrow, no worries in sight
Dreaming about the unseen, the unheard things
Flying away smoothly with air beneath my wings
Is love in the air?

The world seems perfect, the people look great
Theres a charm within for there is nothing at stake
A calm heart and a composed head
Knowing everything even before its said
Is love in the air?

A rendezvous with a special someone
Clenching all fears towards him I run
A tight hug that shows all the care
The world ceases to exist right there
With a zillion thouthts in mind ready to share
Yes, i guess love is in the air….

aarrrggghhhh...................

Whoever said everything happens for a reason was really right in making such a statement but what really intrigues me is the fact that most of us are not aware of that reason ever. If not most of us I will at least vouch for myself because I am always wondering whether most of the things that take place around me really have a hidden reason behind them or not.
Be it my loved ones getting mad at me or friends having grudges its almost surprising why such things happen. And the funniest part is that these are the people who mean the world to me & I end up upsetting them
There are mny times in ones life when one really doesn’t intend to do or say cerain things but sometimes circumstances are such that things just happen . later when one looks back at them it seems really bizzare that why these things ever happened .
I vividly remember my school days where everything around me was very pure, away from any complexity of the real world. People surrounding me were genuine or maybe I was really naïve to be able able to differentiate between the genuine and non- genuine people. It was never about hurting someone or being plain mean just for the heck of it, apologies that were meted were actually meant , nothing was hidden.
Today its been just a few years that I have outgrown school and college and the world doesn’t seem the same any more.
I have seen people change right under my nose and believe me it aint funny. Its strange how the same people who were your best pals have suddenly ceased to acknowlwge your presence.
Well it hurts and can be extremely demotivating for any sane person to handle but I guess its better to leave it at that cos the more we delve into dat the more complicated it gets to handle.

Today again life has has got me to crossroads where it has again become important to make a decision which will decide my future course and its now very pivotaal for me to take a call.
It’s a moment of truth an hour of calling and I have to soon make a prudent move………and well life just goes on…..